A day for doctors

No one tells you when you have a baby about the worry and pain you sometimes face. First doctor was today. We took Molly back to have her hip checked on to see if we are looking at hip displaysia. Well after examination, the doc thought we should see a specialist, just to err on the side of caution. So Monday we will head out to the 2nd doctor to have little Molly's hips x-rayed and sonogramed. I would like to say I'm not worried, but there is a part of me that wishes we didn't have to do this... why couldn't this baby be as easy as Hope? Why do we have to face this little trial too? And then we have placed a call in for our other one, Claire, to the Mayo clinic for our 3rd doctor of the day. Looking at an appointment there in July or August---maybe some answers are just a couple of months away. Since starting this latest medicine, her seizures have increased from 2 a day to 4-6 a day--not fun watching your child have no control over her body and then completely wiped out from them afterward. Makes my heart break a little with each one her body endures. If I believe that God made us and formed us and loves us still.... and that we are created for his glory, then I have to believe that somehow this is for His glory.... but I sure cannot explain it. Why does it have to be so hard? And then for the 4th doctor, waiting on Claire's neurologist to call back and discuss this latest medicine change. We so need wisdom in the next step.....

"It is because of Him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God-that is, our righteousness, holiness, and redemption. Therefore, as it is written: 'Let him who boasts boast in the Lord." 1 Cor 1:30-31

Bittersweet

Ah how bittersweet life can be. All we know is what we have already experienced. With each passing day that Molly grows older, becomes bittersweet in retrospect to what we experienced with Claire. We missed out on lots of smiles and eye contact and even crying for hunger, holding and bedtime. I wouldn't change our experience because that is what God has blessed our family with, but I do long for those things to happen with our sweet Clairebear. Children truly are a gift from God and we do treasure the uniqueness about each one. Hope is so outgoing, a live wire. My social planner, organizer, smart and funny girl. Claire is sweet tempered, beautiful and a cuddler. Molly has a quick temper, but then a glowing smile. It will be interesting to see how she develops her special personality.

I believe God has answered our prayer for now for a bigger house and that answer is NO. Which is fine with us, we love our humble house. So now our next prayer is whether or not to take Claire to the Mayo clinic this summer. We feel we need to see if there is anything else we should be doing for this sweet little one. And if the answer is no more than what we are doing now, then maybe we will have achieved some peace of mind. For the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard our hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.

Ready for Kindergarten

Today was a busy day.... started off the morning with Claire's therapy... she is doing so well. And she has just the sweetest personality to go with it. Then it was off to the elementary for Hope to do her kindergarten evaluation to see how to place her in a class. She had a great time, in fact, she was ready for school to start today. She asked if she needed to bring her backpack and lunch box-ha! Of course our big debate is whether or not we are going to homeschool her coming this fall. Still waiting on God's direction for that. But I think we will wait on that answer until we settle some other issues; like selling our house and buying a little bigger one here in town. Three girls and one bathroom, we might need a bit more space--ha!

My how time flies!

Molly is already one month! wow! And Claire just turned 2 and before long Hope will be 5 and on her way to Kindergarten. Where has the time gone. Plus this summer Russell and I are celebrating our 10th wedding anniversary. Seems like just yesterday we were heading off to college, I still feel like 18! ha!

Molly has started smiling a lot! She is just a little doll...although we call her our "hot tamale" because she likes to lie around in only her diaper. Claire is good... we got her a new chair to help her sit up more, can't wait to use it. And Hope, what shall I say about her!

Russell is busy counting down the days till school is out and summer vacation has begun. We are all looking forward to our trip to Branson in just a couple of weeks. And all of the other fun things this summer holds; sports camps, family time, swimming etc.